Goodbye

How do I,

say goodbye,

to what we had?

The good times that made us laugh,

outweigh the bad,

I thought we'd get,

to see forever,

But forever's gone away,

It's so hard,

to say goodbye,

to yesterday

I don't know,

where the road,

is going to lead,

All I know,

is where we've been,

and what we been through,

If we get to see tomorrow,

I hope it's worth all the wait,

It's so hard,

to say goodbye,

to yesterday.

And I'll take,

with me the memories,

To be my sunshine after the rain,

It's so hard

to say goodbye

to yesterday

GOODBYE

Over Already??

It is hard to believe that today is the last day of this little mini holiday vacation. I did not get all that I wanted to get done but I have started. The weather changed and it got very cold here which made it difficult to go out and put up the lights especially while standing on a metal ladder. I plan to have them up by the end of this week because the weather is suppose to get nice again.

Well today I will spend studying for yet another test. There are 2 weeks left and we have 2 tests, an exam and a final. A LOT of studying in the next 2 weeks.

I have found a new spot for blogging and it is quite addicting. Some people from my class and work are already there so it makes more sense to be there. I will come here from time to time but if you don't see me you'll know why.

Anyway...

ya'll come back now...hear

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!

went to the parade...yeah!!!
we had a great time...i would have some pics but my kids took the batteries out of my cam and sue left her cam in the car.. :)
but i have a link...you can check out some pics there...
have a GREAT day
http://abclocal.go.com/wpvi/story?section=features&id=3585238

The concert

at last... a few minutes to recall the Ashlee Simpson concert....the days have slipped by and the memory has faded somewhat..(thank God) but i think i can recall the majority of the event...

the concert took place at the beautiful Borgata in the lovely atlantic city...if you ever get a chance to visit AC do not leave without seeing the Borgata...it is a beautiful casino with absolutley phenomenal light fixtures...anyway...the concert

Elyssa, Gigi and I..at the concert

we were there early...for nothing more than to wait in line...standing..for hours...we watched all the little girls dressed like ashlee walking by to take their place in the line....we waited and chatted...then finally..after what seemd like an eternity..the doors open...squeals of delight rise up from the crowd...we also cheer...for we are going inside...to comfortable seats...

we are herded like cattle through the doors...my breath is taken from me...no..not because of the beauty..the serenity..the loveliness..the majesty...the immensenss...not for any of those reasons...it is because..and this is the most unbelievable thing EVER...there were NO seats...one big open room.....and i have to say it again because i can hardly believe it myself...NO SEATS!!!! there in the front of the room is a stage...surrounded by carpet...and..NO seats...and the stage...ah...the stage...it is nothing more than a stage for a high school...for mame or grease to be performed...a high school stage...not even a college or university...just a high school stage...hardly seems appropriate for the MEGA star that Ashlee claims to be but...whatever...we are there because my daughter LOVES Ashlee Simpson...Elyssa is so happy that it makes everything that takes place worth while...keep in mind that i am not complaining... merely.. venting if you will....
ok...back to the concert...
where were we
herded
no seats
stage
ah yes..there we were
the stage
small...ashlee size i guess
standing was first come first serve...and we were early so we were VERY close to the stage...toe to toe with everyone around us..elyssa is thrilled beyond belief...once again i have to say...it makes me happy...i was so glad to be there with her..

we wait in the crowd for over an hour...standing there...smashed in...

FINALLY...the band comes out..but not Ashlee and her band...some guys that ashlee found in some bar in the hills of tennessee or the backwoods of south carolina....just a band no one ever heard of...ok...i can stand this...it should not be too long before the Ash makes her appearance..
the band..plays..and plays...and plays some more...then they are done...they clear the stage and ask the audience if they are ready for ASHLEE....screams errupt....even i am excited now...it will just be minutes..then ashlee will be here....right??

WRONGO buckaroo..

another band...this one from some bar in texas..oh god...

remember...we are standing..there are no seats...we have been standing for hours...and hours...toe to toe with the crowd around us...breathing was difficult...my legs were killing me...my back was having spasms and my feet were completely numb...but the happiness on E's face made it all disappear...

this band played...and played..and played some more..then...they declare the next song will be the last..and...
"Who is ready for Ashlee to come out?"
YEAH!!!!!!!! the crowd cheers...
silly us
for they have but one more song in them..
or so they tell us..
then
another
and
another....
each time promising that this will be the last song...then the great and powerful ashlee simpson will arrive...by now she is like the friggin wizard of oz...we know she exists for we have heard the tales...but ...where could she be????
at long last...they play their last song...FOR REAL!!!
they clear the stage..
ashlee's band sets up...
then
no one
just the equipment..
no people
but wait...who is that...CHEERS!!!!
oh...just a stage boy...doing a "sound check"...he leaves
again
empty stage
another stage boy
another "sound check"
this goes on a few times
it is a tease or a delay or a diversion...whatever it is...i am annoyed...

then
oh my god
it is almost 10:30
and
the crowd goes wild
cheers...screams...the floor shakes as the crowd jumps up and down..

there she is
finally...at long last...
ASHLEE SIMPSON
close enough to spit my gum and HIT her with it...believe me...i am thinking about it..because all i can picture is her in her room saying
as she stomps her foot
"i don't want to go out yet"
"you're not the boss of me"
"i'm gonna do what i wanna do"

all i want is one good slap...then i will be happy :)
but i look at Elyssa who is jumping along with everyone else...she is singing...and dancing...and she is so so so so happy...i start dancing and having a great time just because she is having the best time of her life....

then the concert is over...it was not long at all...i mean the Ashlee part of the concert..but...whatever

we leave...herded like cattle again...there is ONE way out...with 2 escalators running..and thousands of people leaving...ok...i am no mathmatician..but somehow that does not seem right... i am a mother and the mother in me always comes out..but..what if there was a fire...we would have surely all perished...not something i want remembered about me....dying at the ashlee simpson concert...

anyway...in spite of EVERYTHING...we had a good time..and Elyssa was very happy

Gosh Darn it all to Heck

i was in the middle of posting a lovely account of the magnificent Ashlee Simpson concert when the computer failed...so now i will have to try again...but..later...i have to go to the market..Sam's club...for the many things that i need from there...there is a cultural luncheon in school tomorrow and i have to bring a dish and a desert...then there is thanksgiving...since i have the very much busiest schedule in my family i have lucked out this year and i have NOT been asked to make the stuffing (they like mine best) and all the other dishes i am usually asked to make...i get to bring a desert...bought of course...and bruschetta...i am cheating this time and buying everything pre-made and i will put it together to look like i did all the work...of course i will claim that i made it from scratch...but they will know...they always do..
then Elyssa said...
with a frown...you are not making your cranberry sauce...
i said...of course i am...wouldn't be thanksgiving without it..
so now i have to make that too...lucky me :)

i am happy though...the holidays are here..almost..
great time of year..and best of all...off from school for 6 weeks..YEAH!!!!!

ok...i am outie once again...i promise to comment on the concert...

see ya'll real soon

Maternity

even though this is the area that i really want to work in i am so afraid of this rotation....i don't know why but i am...

the day was ok but i had to do the ATI testing today and i don't really like it so much....i am not good at it and i know i have to get better so that i can pass the boards....

not much else is happening...i have to do a few drug cards for tomorrow and i have to look up some things so i don't look like a tart on the floor...

that's about it...oh yea...a bunch of people are going out this weekend...this semester is a lot more relaxed than last semester and there is a bit more time for get togethers...i have to check out where the new place is...last time we went to PJs in haddonfield...this time some place in cherry hill...i want to go to adelphia but they all laugh when i make that suggestion...not quite sure why...i will make it a point to find out...i am making a pork roast for dinner and i have to get some wash done and some homework....so..i am outie...btw...31/2 more weeks...YEA!!!!!

BTW....

i know ya'll are jealous because i have the BEST template EVER!!!!! i am not sure how it was done...you will have to ask Lorenzo...but...it makes my mouth water.. :)

lovin it

Lyrics to Reba

this is a show that i now have the chance to watch since i am off on Fridays...i thought the lyrics were fitting and appropriate for me:

I was born 3 months too early.

The doctor gave me 30 days

But I must've had my mama's will and God's amazing grace

I guess I'll keep on livin' even if this love's to die for

Cuz your bags are packed and I ain't cryin'

You're walkin' out and I'm not tryin'

To change your mind 'cuz I was born to be.

The baby girl without a chance.

A victim of circumstance.

The one who oughta give up but she's just too hard headed

A single mom who works 2 jobs

Who loves her kids and never stops

With gentle hands and the heart of a fighter.

I'm a survivor

I don't believe in self pity it only brings you down

May be the queen of broken hearts

but I don't hide behind the crown

When the deck is stacked against me

I just play a different game

My roots are planted in the past

and though my life is changing fast

Who I am is who I wanna be

Oh a single mom who works 2 jobs

Who loves her kids and never stops

With gentle hands and the heart of a fighter.

I'm a survivor

But I must have had my mama's will and God's amazing grace

I'm a survivor

Next Rotation

the next rotation, of which there is 4 weeks, is ob/gyn, l&d, and nicu...the BABIES...i am looking forward to it yet a little anxious about it....i think it is the hardest rotatiuon to end with...i am so jealous of the group ending with community...i would MUCH rather have that to end with...but...i think we will all do well...

today i have to finish all the homework that did not finish yesterday...and i have to study for the exam which will be on monday morning at 8 am...

there are some things that i have to get done around the house also...i should really get started... :( boo hoo

The Peds Rotation ...DONE

one more rotation this semester...4 more weeks...yeah baby....
can't wait for this all to be over..

there is an exam monday...then 2 more exams including the final....then off for 6 weeks...then the last semester...we will finally be the senoir class...what a great feeling that will be...

19 more class weeks altogether...

anyway....

it is getting cold here...and it did it quite fast...i went to work the other night it was warm..then when i came out it was really cold...

i have to close the pool this weekend...write a paper..do a ton of homework...and study for an exam..sounds like it will be a great weekend.. :(

I never Dreamed of Being so Tired

I can't keep my eyes open
it is late and i am going to bed..

i work till after 11pm and i have to be at clinical by 8, 9, or 6:45 am....
long days, much homework, and housework, kids, wash, animals, christmas shopping (which i have not even started) and now this lawsuit that i must undertake...i keep asking myself...
WHEN WILL IT END?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

the answer is simple...

may 12th....

day after graduation....


i can't think of much else...
sad really
but the truth!!